Spinning Out of Control

Spinning Out of Control

A little over two years ago, I had a terrible fall. My head hit directly on a tile floor that is over concrete. When I woke I not only had an excruciating headache, but I was unable to even move. When I made any movement at all, the world began to spin. After many days and different medical treatments, the spinning continued. It was to the point that I could not even stand, I just fell over if I tried. Even through medication, the medical community could not get my dizzy spells to end.

I learned a lot through the process. I learned that most of your balance is controlled through your vision. I also learned that the spinning was no respecter of time or location. When it came, it came. I learned that although it didn’t physically hurt to have vertigo, it made me terribly sick to my stomach and in a way paralyzed my life. Although my natural reaction was to close my eyes because the world around me was moving so fast, I found only one thing that helped me to begin to control these episodes. I would stand still and open my eyes as big as I could and wait. My body would begin to recognize that although it seemed I was moving, my feet were planted and eventually the spinning from that episode would end.

As I was praying for our nation, I had the realization that as a whole we are in a very similar situation. Things everywhere seem to be spiraling out of control. It is scary. Our natural reaction is to close our eyes and put our heads down, an apathetic stance. But just as in my situation with vertigo, that is the very last position we want to end up in. It only makes things worse. We must hold our heads straight up, keeping our eyes open and our feet firmly planted. We must do our best to control the situation. We must not be moved by the spinning world around us.

We as a nation and a church body have stood in apathy for a long time. We must engage. We must choose to change the things around us. Our nation has not been forsaken. It is filled with people and God loves people. According to John 3:16, “God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” We act as though God himself is causing the destruction we are living in. That is not true. According to John 10:10, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I [God] came that they may have life and have it abundantly.”

I am going to choose to hold my head up, open my eyes, and plant my feet in the Word of God. I am choosing to not give up on the world.

Julie